ONE MONTH from tomorrow is Nick’s big move! ONE MONTH. ONE. Holy…
Where has summer gone? Where has time gone period? This summer has been filled with so many countless memories and the month of July will be nothing short of fun-filled and fabulous as well! This really makes me realize how blessed I am in so many ways, but also, hammers home the fact that everything is more fun with my Nick!! This is where it becomes bittersweet.
I put on a smiley, strong face, and I honestly am SO excited for him and the journey that lays ahead. BUT, I am not ready to send him off to Grenada. I am not ready to be apart for 4.5-5 months. I am not ready to be living in different countries. The reason that I am not ready isn’t for fear of losing him either… I simply do not want to be away from him for so long. I am going to miss literally everything about him. He’s my best friend, he knows how to make me smile no matter what, and makes every day better. Meh, basically, I am jealous of Grenada for getting him!!!
However, today someone asked me about him and after about 5 minutes I realized I had been rambling on about how great of a doctor he is going to be, and how exciting it is that he is going to get to experience life in another country during med school. And the thing is… I meant every word of it. Every single word. I am excited for him, I know he is going to do great things, and I know that everything is going to work out fantastically.
The one comfort in dreading him leaving so much is knowing that I have him to miss. It’s going to be hard. Long distance is a drag. I am going to be lonely. BUT (there is always a but) I am lucky to have a man that I love so much that I cannot even picture my life without him.
Bottom line, I am going to enjoy and cherish every second of this last month I have with him <3 Then, buckle down for the next 4-5 months and finish grad school and get my booty down there so my heart can be complete again!
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